Just came back from steamboat with Tori Q peeps: xw, Tong, Minglong, Celine, Shao gang, Cheng long and Tong's friend. waited till 11pm for Ml. Knocked off at 7pm. Went fareast and wisma with xw to shop for my shoes.
Steamboat at Bugis. First time eating steamboat with them(: This may be our very last gathering? Cos Ml will be going back china on august then Tong don't know going back to work ))): Ate quite alot, which is a bad thing? Cos i will get fatter again! But i really enjoy eating with tori q peeps. The feeling is just so different compared to eating with friends. Maybe is because of the age gap. Most of them are around 20-24. Lol.
So there was one moment where the atmosphere became quite silent. I just duno what the hell was wrong with me at that time. I just turned around and told xw " 我觉得我的life很sad". Then everybody looked at me. After xw asked me why, i started crying. I don't know why also. Tears just welled up. And its uncontrollable. I tried very hard to hold back my tears cos i dun want to dampen the happy atmosphere. But still..Everyone were shocked. im sorry.
Then cabbed home with xw. Was talking about some emo stuffs in the taxi. And i realised alot of things. Hais.
Bathed and think of the same old things again. And cried again. Tong and Ml's sms made me cried even more. was very touched after reading their message. After reading Ml's message, i really feels that i cannot keep everything to myself anymore.. I thought i had no one whom i can really confide in after losing my most trusted friend. I lost him months ago. But now, at least, i know i still have two tori q 'boyfriends' who will always be there for me when im at my lowest period <3 and of course, not forgetting my best friend NG XUEWEI <3
Talking to Tong on msn now. Will be meeting him one of the days during this two weeks to tell him all my problems. He said he wanna listen to me and wanna help me. So touched! Minglong also said that if i got prob, can find him. Seriously, i feel very lucky to be able to work in tori q. If i had not work there, i would not have met people like Tong and Ml. They are seriously nice people. And i dun treat them as work friends alrdy. I treat them as my very good friends where i can share with them my prob and all like how i share it with friends of my age. 我爱他们！
Deep down in my heart, i am really very sad. Sometimes, i really wonder why i lead such a sad life. Yes, only when im with my family and some of my friends like xw, im happy. But its only for that moment. Afterwhich? I may seem happy sometimes. Why? I just dun wanna spoil the mood of the friends im hanging out with at that moment. But like what tong say, 如果是朋友就没有说会不会影响别人不开心。Quite true yeah.
I just received a long long sms from xw. She gave me a cute lil book planner. Love her to the max!
Still, i dun think i will have a good sleep tonight. Hais. Im sad cos alot of things are bothering me ):
Why do we always quarrel whenever we start a conver?
Is it really impossible for us to go back to how we used to be last time? I dun wanna lose you, my most trusted friend ):
Did you actually work towards your promises?
STRESSED
Steamboat at Bugis. First time eating steamboat with them(: This may be our very last gathering? Cos Ml will be going back china on august then Tong don't know going back to work ))): Ate quite alot, which is a bad thing? Cos i will get fatter again! But i really enjoy eating with tori q peeps. The feeling is just so different compared to eating with friends. Maybe is because of the age gap. Most of them are around 20-24. Lol.
So there was one moment where the atmosphere became quite silent. I just duno what the hell was wrong with me at that time. I just turned around and told xw " 我觉得我的life很sad". Then everybody looked at me. After xw asked me why, i started crying. I don't know why also. Tears just welled up. And its uncontrollable. I tried very hard to hold back my tears cos i dun want to dampen the happy atmosphere. But still..Everyone were shocked. im sorry.
Then cabbed home with xw. Was talking about some emo stuffs in the taxi. And i realised alot of things. Hais.
Bathed and think of the same old things again. And cried again. Tong and Ml's sms made me cried even more. was very touched after reading their message. After reading Ml's message, i really feels that i cannot keep everything to myself anymore.. I thought i had no one whom i can really confide in after losing my most trusted friend. I lost him months ago. But now, at least, i know i still have two tori q 'boyfriends' who will always be there for me when im at my lowest period <3 and of course, not forgetting my best friend NG XUEWEI <3
Talking to Tong on msn now. Will be meeting him one of the days during this two weeks to tell him all my problems. He said he wanna listen to me and wanna help me. So touched! Minglong also said that if i got prob, can find him. Seriously, i feel very lucky to be able to work in tori q. If i had not work there, i would not have met people like Tong and Ml. They are seriously nice people. And i dun treat them as work friends alrdy. I treat them as my very good friends where i can share with them my prob and all like how i share it with friends of my age. 我爱他们！
Deep down in my heart, i am really very sad. Sometimes, i really wonder why i lead such a sad life. Yes, only when im with my family and some of my friends like xw, im happy. But its only for that moment. Afterwhich? I may seem happy sometimes. Why? I just dun wanna spoil the mood of the friends im hanging out with at that moment. But like what tong say, 如果是朋友就没有说会不会影响别人不开心。Quite true yeah.
I just received a long long sms from xw. She gave me a cute lil book planner. Love her to the max!
Still, i dun think i will have a good sleep tonight. Hais. Im sad cos alot of things are bothering me ):
Why do we always quarrel whenever we start a conver?
Is it really impossible for us to go back to how we used to be last time? I dun wanna lose you, my most trusted friend ):
Did you actually work towards your promises?
STRESSED